Lots to tell! So little interest... (or maybe there is).
Let's start with HmmmHmmmWow (and I'll break it into several posts so it doesn't get overwhelming).
We went on 5 Dates.
- Date 1 - Recap - We had dinner and saw a movie. Then we went back to her place where we talked (I talked a LOT) and she handpetted me.
- Date 2 - Recap - She made me dinner at her place then we went to WeHo bars to meet her friends. I talked a lot but shut up in the bar and was quiet around her friends. The transition was a little awkward but she accepted it. The problem - I found one of her friends WAYY attractive (one of my previous "worries") and then found it hard to think about HmmHmmWow.
- Date 3 - She came to my place. I made her dinner. Things got a little "interesting" when she turned the conversation towards sex. I played innocent and virginous and the most that happened was she sorta "hard cuddled" me and made out with my ears a little. We both got heated up and turned on... but I wouldn't let it go farther. And she was turned on by my innocence.
- Date 4 - I asked her to a dance as my date (where I warned her we wouldn't dance). I was thinking "tonight may be the night I allow a kiss and maybe make out with her." (Yes, I'm a prude.) After the dance I got a little nervous and decided we should see a movie instead of going straight back to one of our places. While we waited for the time, we browsed around a book store where she allowed me to wander off and looked at her own interests. This earned her points in her favor... until she found me and gave me a hug in the middle of the store because she needed that human affection. I'm not so into PDA and I don't really have AFFECTION for her so ... points against her. Then we watched the movie... which proved to be too much tension for her. She held on to me tightly and squirmed. Points against her. We went to her place afterwards and I made a point to sit on the couch (instead of the bed). She joined me - then laid out - then attempted to have me lay next to her... while I nervously steered all conversation AWAY from doing stuff. The points against her had really bugged me... to the point of grossing me out. I just wanted to leave and I finally escaped with nothing happening.
- Date 5 - Somewhere between Date 4 and 5 I had begun hanging out with NowEx a little more frequently. Things became a little confusing. I decided that we may be close to a reconciliation. With that in mind and the weird stuff from Date 4 - I decided that all I wanted from HmmHmmWow was a physical thing... and she obviously wanted a relationship.... and I was worried about doing something I would regret (should I get back together with NowEx). I decided it was time to cut off the relationship before anything further happened. So I took her to dinner... talked to her about how things were going with NowEx (this was somewhat normal because all of our talking relationship revolved around discussions about OTHER girls), and ended with the conclusion that I didn't want to see her anymore. I thought she'd take it better than she did - but she did still insist on "one last cuddle" during which she expressed her "upset" by pulling my hair, pinching me and slapping my hands. I let her... because I felt guilty. Was my point made - I'm not sure. She seemed to still have it in her head that she was my "maybe girl." But when she left - I was ecstatic. No more HmmmHmmmWow!
But the lingering problem.... I still found her friend waayyy attractive and SO my type.
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