Holiday

I went on a vacation last week! I spent some time on the east coast with friends there and I declared (to another MySpace buddy) before I left that if HotttGirl did not leave me a message, post a comment or send an e-mail about how she missed me by the time I came back - then I would officially give up on her. (And I thought about her every damn day I was gone... I managed to avoid MySpace... but talked about her and showed one of my friends a picture of her. He declared, "Damn! I wouldn't usually advocate being a homewrecker but damn! She's hot! Go for it!" Which strangely seems to be the consensus... at least of the people I'm paying attention to.) :)

When I returned there were two such "I miss you" messages from her. Damn!

The other day there was some silly bulletin post about "repost this if you like someone and want to straight up chill, nap, cuddle, spend time with, make out with, etc. with them." I thought, "What the hell?!" and posted it with the subject line (as suggested by the bulletin) "I like her." HotttGirl responded right away (I was half hoping she'd see it and half hoping she'd miss it) and said, "Awww! Was that for NowEx?" I thought for a moment that I should ignore the note or lie but I chose instead to respond sort of kiddingly so she wouldn't necessarily know that I have this huge crush on her. I answered, "No, it was for you NumbNuts! Because I wanted to straight up chill with you!" Followed by a smiley emoticon of course.

She responded, "Just chill? Grumble Grumble"

Then she reposted that same bulletin and gave it the subject "I Love RefriedLesBean" and added the note to the top on the inside of the post, "I hope it's OK if I want to do more than chill with you."

Now for those of you not familiar with MySpace - a "bulletin" gets posted in a place where EVERYBODY on your friends list can see the message. It's like sending an e-mail to all of your contacts at once.

I gave in a little and sent a note to her after that telling her that sometimes she makes me all "wobbly."

She giveth and then she taketh away. There's this silly new little clique-ish sort of thing on MySpace now. Previously your friends list just showed the first 8 people in your list (8 random friends) but now you can pick which 8 friends show. As a result there is all this silly drama about who gets picked as your #1 friend and etc. I was HotttGirl's #1 friend but then she created a MySpace profile for her husband and made him her #1. I took that as a sign. (She was actually my #4, with SoUmmYeah ahead of her, but I swapped them today because SoUmmYeah said I should. Actually she said, "Oh my God! Just put her ahead of me already! Gawd!" So I did.)

The following day HotttGirl posted a blog entry about how she's been nervous, anxious and having nightmares because her husband was going to be signing/turning in his final papers to enlist in the Army. And how she's terrified of being alone. And how is she going to raise her babies herself. Etc. Etc.

Red flags and sirens again. OK maybe she just likes me because she's hoping I'll fill some sort of void and make her less lonely.

Really there are an abundance of red flags and I still seem to be ignoring them. I'll never be able to say that I didn't know what I was getting into (if I get into anything).

Meanwhile - she still took some shared pictures of me from my vacation and saved them to her computer and changed her MSN Messenger name to "I love RefriedLesbean" again. I've gotta say - the girl's got balls. I'd never be bold enough to do that.

In other news - I came back to find that SoUmmYeah had gone to a particular lesbian bar, that I'd been stressing about going to because HmmHmmWow keeps asking me to go, without me. Which is fine except that I'd asked her to come with me as friend protection but now it won't be new to her. Then as she told me about the experience I realized that she hadn't gone alone. I got a little excited, thinking she'd gone with a date, and asked who she went with. Then she told me that she'd gone with HmmHmmWow. The conversation got a little weird after that. I think she was worried that I'd be upset about her seeing HmmHmmWow behind my back but really I was just in a "dang - she's stealing my friends" moment. She's also apparently been e-mailing with Glee and inviting HmmHmmWow to other things. Actually that's totally fine with me - but I can tell SoUmmYeah thinks that there might be something between me and HmmHmmWow and that she might be in a strange relationship zone. Which there isn't anything between us... at least not on my end. However every once in a while HmmmHmmmWow will e-mail me to tell me that she's been on a few dates but hasn't had sex. I'm not sure why I'm on her sex update list.

And back at the ranch - I seem to be getting a lot of invites (are they asking me out??) from a variety of MySpace girls. Some cute - some not so cute. All bold enough to invite me out. I haven't managed to be available for one yet maybe soon. Some of them are really cute.

Thursday I have an appointment with a psychic who is supposed to be excellent. I hear she helps the Los Angeles Police Department with cases. I'll probably ask her about the usual - career and romance. I predict that she'll see something in my future about HotttGirl and a broken heart.