Since my last update I still have not gone out with Irritating Girl, Texas Heather spilled something on her phone - disabling it - so no new pictures/videos and no phone conversation yet, SoYeahUm's been a bitch who I hope to not associate with much anymore, L.A. Heather still hasn't really talked to me and HotttGirl changed her profile to say her orientation is "bi."
More importantly though, Francophile and I have continued to talk. At first it was just long e-mails but then at some point I suggested that she and I begin the "Six Question" game (the same one I "played" with Texas Heather) so that we could more directly focus our conversations.
The first question I asked her was a blatant, "So are you bi?" and her answer was in the affirmative. Then I asked her to describe her relationship with Irritating Girl - so I found out that actually they weren't friends in "real life." Actually they'd met on the Internet five years ago in a lesbian chat room, briefly had crushes on each other but then Franco met and fell in love with her husband to be and stopped talking to her. And they had just within the last several months found each other again on MySpace.
(So being "stolen" by a friend of I.G. no longer seems so rude and weird since I.G. and Franco have never even actually met.)
Anyway - I told Franco that I believed that the Six Question game inevitably led to harmless flirting (as warning) but she definitely wanted to play ... so we began.
And since that day we've both gotten a little carried away - e-mailing each other several times a day - staying up too late at night to write long responses - neglecting our work - not sleeping well - etc.
She's clearly dangerous. And she has some power over me - I just can't figure it out! For instance - in the beginning she asked me point blank if she was my type and I said, "No". But in a matter of two e-mails she had me saying, "You're exactly my type!" She's almost a Jedi knight using the "mind trick" on me ... just subtly saying things that I later repeat as if they were ideas of my own.
At the same time - some of the things she says (which are, by the way, some of the most romantic things anyone has every said to me) would make me bug my eyes out in fright/worry if someone else said them. But when she says them I swoon or blush or have a physical jolt run through me. Again I don't know what it is - she's not particularly attractive (though she is cute), she's exactly not the person I want to date (being just like my 2 exes in several ways) and she's totally unavailable (by relationship status and physical location). But I'm definitely "falling-in-like" with her and it is mutual.
I think part of the appeal is the secrecy though. Like not only from her husband (obviously) but also from Irritating Girl who might get upset when she finds out. (I'd still like to keep it from her but Franco says she's so consumed with me right now that she doesn't care who knows and actually WANTS I.G. to know because she has a right to like me if she wants to.)
Another part of the appeal is that she's never actually done anything with a girl. She's admitted that she's bi and before she met her husband she was telling people that she preferred women but... I guess in her small town world in the middle of America - she didn't have a lot of those opportunities.
All the usual red flags are up... but in this moment I've got yet another crush on yet another married girl.
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